Healthy Habits For Ponies! Take 2! ~Update last challenge, pg 99!!

[Gingerbread]

Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.
Yesterday I realised just how much snacking I was doing before the challenge. I've cut out so much more than I thought! I don't have a scales but I've definitely shrunk a little bit

Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you.
Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.
I struggled so much with one of the challenges to the point where I nearly made myself ill, threw strops etc etc. But at the end of the day, it was only a banana I wanted to eat. But....bananas are disgusting. I couldn't do it. At the end of the day it was just a banana - there is no way I should have set myself a challenge that I would find impossible to do.
In everyday life I'm constantly challenging myself to overcome my disabilities - sometimes I can do it, sometimes I can't. I've learnt to not ask myself to do something that I know I just can't do. I have my limitations and of course I need to stretch myself, but not try to attain the impossible So that's one life lesson learnt from the experience
I had a teeny mouthful of cola this morning (just woke up, old bottle was still by the bed, half asleep and took a mouthful) and I'm fine with that as I don't crave it any more and don't think I could drink a whole glass of it if I wanted to! I still have the occasional caffeine drink but my main beverage of choice is now flavoured water, or carbonated water if I need something fizzy. I never thought after twenty something years of having what was basically a cola addiction that I could stop! I didn't think I'd say this but I am so proud of me
I'm still eating the occasionally packet of crisps but I'm not replacing a meal with a 6-pack anymore. Which is an achievement I even ate an apple the other day! (I hate fruit. Give me veggies any day of the week!!!)

So yeah the past six weeks have been my own personal struggle with drama, strops, eye-opening moments and stuff but it's been worth it. Roll on the next six weeks - I'm pretty sure I can keep this up!

[ZettaMomo]

My positive for yesterday was that I helped out my mom. She had to stay home sick yesterday so I brought her things she needed and took care of things around the house so she could relax.
Now she is feeling a lot better today.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Positve for the day 2 students are ready for a contest wed!!!! Send good vibes and prayers for a win:) they deserve it and they worked very hard:)

Wanting more music practice.....it started good then did very little and now i am so excited to play that i have to learn 3 pieces....that will take awhile. I need to manage my excitement.

I almost bought candy for myself today....but i passed it up!!!!!!

[BrightSide]

I'm kind of annoyed at myself for today, firstly for the morning.. I started having a hypo when we were out (well done) so we had to rush to the nearest newsagents for sugar.. not diabetic, but I get really low sugars sometimes bc of reduced intake. Also, I managed some food from the children's 3-7 menu.. but panicked and purged. Damnit why can't I just.. idk

Yesterday I found out that the A&E doctors hadn't told us that my Potassium levels are actually abnormal. 
Why they didn't tell us I really don't know.. but I've been thinking about this a lot (what it's doing).


Challenge:
Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.
I have managed to stay out of inpatient care so far. Although it's still under question, I haven't given myself credit lately for actually pulling along and not letting things spiral to even worse points, and now I feel a little less hesitant to reach for the support I need with my specialist.


Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you. Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.

- I need to review my plans and goals. I still haven't begun recovery, and compared to the girl who was in treatment with me.. she's hit her target weight, but my progress is very slow.. if not backwards (initially they thought it'd be the other way around!)

- I have definitely become more aware of my tendancies and habits. I don't have an understanding of them yet, but now I'm beginning to accept and acknowledge things a lot more than I would've done previously. I've also put full trust into my specialist, which I used to find tough at times. This makes me feel better supported.

- I think my goals instead should work more towards finding an understanding to my feelings towards (certain) foods, working out a better way to approach and deal with these feelings. I've been trying to run before I can walk (perhaps crawl would be more accurate ) and that's not the way to tackle things.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Just wanted you to know brightside...that your posts have become more and more positive:)

I have read others wishing this can last forever....well it can. I am willing to stay past the end. You can keep the 2 point system or just post knowing that a pony friend is watching. Many of the past healthy ponies liked this because they had someone or something to answer to...well i am one of those ponies that will stay and read your posts and see if there is something i can help contribute:)

[BrightSide]

^ thank you, lovely.

I know I don't always respond to replies in the thread, but I read each one.. and it's lovely knowing that there's an encouraging, supporting pony friend there rooting for you!!

[Radiance]

Even with all the wonderful support I've not been doing well  Despite keeping track of what I eat and consciously trying to assess why I'm eating and make better choices, I've gained weight and my eating habits are as out of control as ever. A lot of this is linked to my worsening depression and I've made a doctors appointment next week to try and get some help. I wish food wasn't always such a huge deal, that I could just eat when I was hungry and every meal wouldn't be this huge deal.

Oh my, I know exactly how you feel! I'm in the same boat, I even thought about quitting altogether. I hate recording every single bit of food I put in my mouth and obsessing over calories. And I've been dealing with some other issues that drove me to food for comfort. I'm feeling better now and am ready to start again with a clean slate. Just remember you can always start over! Hopefully your doctor will be able to help you get to feeling better

[SurfStar]

Even with all the wonderful support I've not been doing well  Despite keeping track of what I eat and consciously trying to assess why I'm eating and make better choices, I've gained weight and my eating habits are as out of control as ever. A lot of this is linked to my worsening depression and I've made a doctors appointment next week to try and get some help. I wish food wasn't always such a huge deal, that I could just eat when I was hungry and every meal wouldn't be this huge deal.

Oh my, I know exactly how you feel! I'm in the same boat, I even thought about quitting altogether. I hate recording every single bit of food I put in my mouth and obsessing over calories. And I've been dealing with some other issues that drove me to food for comfort. I'm feeling better now and am ready to start again with a clean slate. Just remember you can always start over! Hopefully your doctor will be able to help you get to feeling better

*hugs* I'll add to this. I generally don't really write down everything, I just like to take 10-15 minutes each night and think back on what I ate throughout the day and how I feel. I know I don't always want to have to journal and my very first nutritionist said something that really hit a home-run:

"Don't do something to lose/gain weight, that you're not willing to do forever" - I don't want to write everything down or obsess over every little thing. Now I just look for WHY I am eating - and if I am eating for comfort I think about WHY I'm choosing those foods:

For example, when I get the flu, invariably I want Spaghetti-O's. They are my total comfort food. I reach for them because they make me feel better. My reasoning is, I have such strong memories of being cuddled up on the couch with my favorite stuffed animal and having my Mom bring me a bowl, that even now while eating them I can get a little bit of those feelings back.

Renee, Rhini - just remember each day is brand new, I know that it is SO hard but try not to feel guilty over your choices. When we feel guilt about eating, often we fall into a bigger cycle. As a former emotional eater I can empathize and understand your struggles all too well.

's all around. More updating tomorrow. Finally, finally starting to feel like I am getting back on track!

[kiwimlp]

My postive for the day is that I took my husband over to pick up his car (without complaining, lol!). 
As far as assessing my plans and results over the last few weeks, I am very happy with how things are going and my weight loss.  One thing I was discussing with my friend (who is also dieting) though is to watch my carb intake.  I tend to over-do the bread/pasta/potatos and that slows my weight loss.

I only walked to and from the auction today so .5 for exercise + 1 pt for eating

[BrightSide]

95% chance I'm going inpatient within the next few weeks. Having an assessment on Tuesday.. no idea where I'm going to end up :c it's so scary.. I'm struggling to comprehend it at this moment in time. wow..

[egyptiondragon]

Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.

Monday i felt i gained so cofidace when talking to my bfs friends
tuesday helped a bit more around the house

Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you. Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.
i think ive thought more about what im doing im happper lately i need to contiue to change in the next few weeks

[SurfStar]

So trying to work on getting some replies done today. The Arena has been a little wonky for me though and I keep getting an error. So things have been going a little slow.

I did manage to work through my PM's so, if you haven't heard back and wanted/needed to - please resend the message. I'm betting I didn't get it.

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Thanks for your reply, Surfstar.  I got 2 points yesterday and 2 again today. 

We have a 70s themed party to go to in the weekend and I really don't like what I have to wear.  My husband wasn't very complimentary (when is he ever?) when I put it on to show him and now all I want to do is cry.  I sooooo don't want to go to the party (although I was really looking forward to it before) and I am gutted that I am so down on myself.  I have lost 8.5kgs and I can wear my own clothes again without looking like a hippo so I was hoping to feel at least semi-good when I stepped out in public again.

Now I just want to sit at home at cry.  One bit of progress though. at least I don't want to sit at home and eat.

You're more than welcome for the reply. How was the party? I bet you looked just fine and I'm sorry that your husband made you feel like a cow. I, personally, stopped asking my husband because he just doesn't seem to know how to say nice things about my appearance without putting his foot in his mouth. Fortunately, that's something we've been working on but I really feel you.

I think that we're always hardest on ourselves and because we see ourselves each day we don't see the weight-loss/gain the same as others. It always feels like to me that I am always super hard on myself and my appearance. I have absolute faith that you will be back into your regular clothes before you know it. Just remember you didn't gain it all over-night and that you won't lose it all overnight either. Unfortunately, losing weight is also harder because you have to do something to prevent weight gain (most of the time!).

I'm sure you're not a hippo at all!

Nooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

 

Don't you DARE get disheartened!!!!    You have got so much to be proud of. Give your hubby an Edna Mode (The Incredibles) slap and work it baby! There's no reason you can't still have some fun - heck, I'd be your plus one if I could, and we could be heffalumps together (meant in the nicest possibly way!)  . Seriously though, if you truly don't like your garment, and you personally think you can find something more flattering, there's still a few days before the weekend to find something else   I hope you feel better about it soon. The most important thing is that you know how far you have come! Didn't you say earlier that you are looking at people on the street in the eye more? That's the spirit hun, and if you feel good about yourself, people will feel that confident vibe more than they will notice what you're wearing.

Besides... it's the 70's... pretty much everyone will look awful! 

 

… I love Edna. She's my inner spirit animal. I think you might have been on a Disney kick when you made this post, though, since now I have the Heffalumps and Woozle's song stuck in my head. I'm not generally a fan of 70's (or 80's) fashions, so just about anything from those era's makes me look like a paisley patterned animal of some sort. It's not a pretty sight.

As you noted in your last sentence! I also agree with most of the advice there, also, instead of asking your husband as your best friend. Mine is great at not lying to me about when I look great (or awful!).

Monday 2 points I did get my work out in:)

Diet Day 2: Veggie day only....this one is the hardest I think. You are eating veggie soup and eating veggies all day....if you are a sweet fiend like me its hard. I do compromise with a V8 V-Fusion. It has a serving of vegggies and fruit and a sweet taste...I normally add water to it...because it can be too sweet and thick for me. But this day you do get 1 baked potato. I recomend that at the end of your supper meal...you can have butter with it too:P I do go to bathroom a lot with this diet....but you are taking in a lot of fluids so it is expected:)

Looking back at my first entry post I saw this... "I also want to stop eating extra snacks...they are never good for me and I have a hard time going for a healthier snack..." this is still a set back for me. I have had slight improvement but not much....the diet is helping me stay away from random bad snacks but this will only be fore a week....I will stay focused and try and get better after this week is done:)

I'm glad you got your points in and that the diet it working well for you. Keep working on your progress with your snacks. Maybe stop and ask yourself if you're just mindlessly eating or if you're really hungry before eating the snack? I also rate my hunger on a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being famished and 10 being stuffed and sick!

As long as this is working for you, I definitely recommend staying in touch with your Doctor though.

Update as promised:

It's kind of bad news.
The good news is that I'm at home at this moment (evidently, as I'm typing this ), but I have two single days to radically stop this lack of progress. Even that may not be enough, though, as I'm now only 75% of my ideal body weight and it's been a rapid slide - this usually means acute care is needed.

Calls are being made tomorrow to my outreach team, meds psych, dietician and various units across the country to see what should be done with me. It won't be refeeding at the local hospital as they do that rarely. We don't know who will take me at the mo' as it'd be a child and adolescent unit.. and there aren't many to choose from.

My specialist was so sad, and it was horrible. I was shocked, admittedly.. I didn't think it had gone down, especially to where it is now. And seeing her worried is even worse. oh god..

I'm sorry that you've not hit bottom yet lovey. On the flipside, at least you know you have a lot of people who really care about you and what happens to you.

I'm going to join again!  I liked this group. Ending up finding a job and I really credit the physical activity, especially tennis, to not letting me get depressed. And now I am addicted to tennis!

1 pt today. New job had candy bowls But it also have 2 flights of stairs to walk up for things! And I'm bringing all my meals, eating nothing fast food.

5 positive things

1. I'm eating less naturally, because I've been eating reasonable portions. And stopping when I'm full and drinking more water.

2. I'm watching calories but not freaking out about them all.

3. I'm drinking more water and sports drinks easily.

4. Less soda.. 1 liter lasts me almost two weeks now!

5. I've lost 10 lbs so far! Slid on the not-fitting capris and they are almost to the point where I can wear them comfortably.

I am glad to see you back and not so disheartened as before! I'm glad that you were able to pick out 5 positives and that the tennis is going well!

Congrats! on your weight lost!

Well, I was gone pretty much the whole weekend so I wasn't able to post! But am back now for  a few days
Fri - 0 points - went way over calories, and only got really light walking in - but was functioning on only two hours of sleep today - so I guess maybe I needed a few more calories!
Sat - 2 points - stayed within the alloted amount of calories and did some light walking all day.
Sun - 2 points - stayed within the calorie amount and did light walking.
Mon - 2 points - Was withing the calorie amount and did light walking.
Tues- 2 points - Within calories and will be doing some yoga here in a bit.

My 5 positives...
1. I don't feel nearly as wilted when we are out enjoying a really hot day. I get less hot and feel much more energized than normal! My stamina has increased and my sweating with activities has decreased.
2. My upper body is getting much stronger. I love that I am able to see a difference in the different yoga poses.
3. I have gone down 9 pounds and have lost a good bit of inches so my clothes are fitting somewhat better.
4. I am drinking much less pop! I still have a craving for it but do drink the water that is needed before I begin on the pop.
5. My back is feeling tons better!!! I am able to move better and longer. I can tell there is still a long way to go - but it has improved!

Welcome back! it looks like you did great while you were away! I' glad that you're able to pick out 5 positive changes within your life. I am so glad you're seeing a difference in your back and your weight! Keep up the fantastic work!

My 5 things im wakeing up earlyer im helping around the house more i help train the animals more i started expresing myself more and im being more polite

I keep trying to wake up earlier. It's not going to be fun in about 2 weeks when I start gearing back up for work. Bleh. I'm glad that you're seeing some positive improvements!

Brightside, first of all huge hugs for you! It's ok if you vanish and get the help you need. Though I understand being in a ward like that may be scary but if it helps you in the long run go for it.

^ I completely agree with this Just remember we're all here for you too!

Tuesday 1 point. Ate well is a given....but I could have done more in the active part. I kind of let my head ach take control...I would have at least done a load of laundry:P
Day 3: Fruit and veggie day...no baked potato. Fruit really helps to feel like you are getting your sweets in....but this diet is getting hard...mostly due the fact its 90 outside and I am heating hot soup...I have tried cold and it was nasty:P I am starting to notice a little bit of slimming in my stomach:) Yeah!

Here is what my next thought was: "I will be using Noom to help me track my calories and my work out.
To get the Calorie Point: I will need to stay in a 1600 cal a day bracket. Noom set that goal for me. I will not be able to have any extra snacks."

I got rid of Noom on my phone:( I just could not get myself to keep track and Noom is WAY easy to use. I am now adopting something SurfStar has mentioned. She base the points on the intake...do I feel I ate too much or unhealthy no point...if I feel great about what I ate take a point:) This has made it easier and made me think more about what I am eating and taking in. Now once this diet is over I will get to eat normal food but I will only get my point if I feel good about the choices I made....I could use this strategy when this is over:)

That was the idea =) I want people to be able to take some of the skills they used/learned here and be able to apply them for lifelong health and happiness! I hate keeping track of my stuff so I just try and be extra aware of what I am eating, How much, why, and when.

Congrats on seeing some slimming going on!

Not feeling very good today  After all this vacation food, any progress I've made has slipped backwards and I'm afraid I'm at that 200 lb mark I'm so terrified of. I had lost about 3 lbs so far and I'm pretty sure I gained that back +. My work pants are back to me leaving the top button open and the only way they fit is if they sit under my fat tummy roll *sigh*. I really really don't want to go out and buy size 16 work pants, it would feel like such a defeat to me, but my pants are now cutting into my sides uncomfortably.

I just feel so helpless today. It seems like every time I try seriously to lose the weight, it works for a time then backfires and I end up binging even harder and gaining more weight than what I started at. I gained all this weight so quickly too, maybe I should consult my doctor next time I go in  I've gained 50 lbs in under a year, more like about 6-8 months.

I think that most people back-slide after a vacation. I'm sure that you're going to be fine once your body balances out. I would definitely talk with your doctor, you never know what else might be going on.

This past week has pretty much been a wash. My eating habits are all off because walking around with this bum knee saps all of my energy and makes me very hungry. I have gotten my exercise points for a few days, though. I can't do proper exercise, but I am still hauling myself up and down the stairs. I've been running errands with hubbs and doing quite a bit of walking and I have been scrambling to get the house clean before my cousin lands tonight. I could have taken it easy, but I didn't and I won't be doing so while she's here, either. So I have more exercise points coming my way, but I likely won't get back to good eating habits until they finally bring me in to have my Crohn's/Arthritis medicated. Also, lack of sleep has caused me to overdo it on the soda. I got some at the store to test myself and see if I could resist temptation. I can't and the long nights have not helped my willingness to do better on that front. So not buying any more soda for the house.

Hopefully this week has been a bit better. I know things have been stressful with your area of the country this past week. It's also good that you were testing your boundaries but know what you need to do to be healthy.

^ Yuru, hugs for you my mother has had Chrohns since 2001 (linked to her having bowel cancer).. I can comprehend how frustrating and bad it can be for you. I'm not entirely sure what to suggest as I don't know your case as I know my mom's, but sometimes certain trigger foods can make things worse for you - dairy often being a culprit.. if they haven't already asked you to, keeping a food diary can help with working out what's not working with your body.

I know some people recommend Aloe Vera, but from a personal pov I'd say -do not- drink that stuff with Chrohns.. my mom ended up in hospital for a fair month or so as it made her so sick. Mom says she finds probiotics like Actimel and Yakult help.. she's tried just about every alternative measure, and these are the only things which seem to have calmed it down. She's not been in the hospital this year which is a first in 12 years..

Huh. I didn't know that about the Aloe. I don't drink it anyway, because I'm not fond of the stresses that 'cleansing diets' put on our bodies. I would definitely be leery of it though now since Crohn's runs in my family. I don't need anything else that can send me to the hospital!

I've been not on the arena much the last few weeks!  Lots of craziness in my life (kittens, iPhone, 80+ hour weeks)!  Good and bad, ups and downs.  I HAVE been tracking my points, and Ive got it saved on my computer.  BUT what was the week 4 challenge?  I can't keep up with the thread, but I like to know the challenges.

5 positive changes:
1. Decreased appetite
2. I crave water and milk now, not soda and sugary stuff
3. Good physical changes in my body
4. Making GOOD healthier choices in what and when I eat
5. I really do have more energy

Kittens!! I'm glad you've been keeping track but don't stress yourself out. It sounds like you've had a busy couple of weeks.

The week 4 challenge wasn't posted, I was on vacation and there was a mix-up with my phone and my computer. So I skipped that week and just waited till week 5.

Positive changes:

1.  Up until my surgery, I was able to start walking for longer periods of time.  Now I'm back to square 1, but I know that I will get stronger again in time.

2.  I have questioning whether or not I'm actually hungry before I get food.

3.  I am getting better at thinking about portion control when I eat and I often eat only half of my food at a restaurant and then save the rest for later.

4.  I was feeling like I had more energy than before (again, back to square 1 with that one, between the pain medicine and the fact that even going to the bathroom requires so much activity that I get exhausted).

5.  I have hardly had any soda since the challenge began!  Just water for me 

Water is the best! I occasionally do a Crystal Light packet, I'm glad to see that you're thinking about portions and other food related things too. This is a good list and I hope that you're recovering nicely!

I am so frustrated right now. I got my first "It's easy for you because you're younger" snide comment today (from my MIL, of course). It hasn't been easy. I joined the gym the same time she did, and I was way behind her fitness level when I started. The only reason I'm ahead of her now is because I've gone to the gym every single day. I drag myself in when I don't feel like it and even when I'm wheezy (I have bad asthma). She is older than me, but my asthma gives me a pretty big disadvantage. She also gets doctor-prescribed appetite suppressants, whereas I've gone on nothing but will power. She's been thin most of her life & wore a size 6 wedding dress. I've struggled with weight almost my entire life & wore a size 24 wedding dress. She's still smaller than me, so I don't even know where that came from. And then she proceeded to criticize my livingroom curtains for the 3rd time. That was just the icing on the cake.

I'm sorry that your MIL was making snide, snippy comments. You're right it isn't easier, you've just put in more effort. You get what you put in and you're seeing the rewards. It does sound like she's a bit jealous of you and is trying to make herself feel better by making you feel bad.

I also probably would have told her that since she didn't live with me, unless I had a problem with my curtains I don't really care to hear her opinion about them more than once - especially since you didn't ask her for the opinion. I would have stayed polite, but it would have made me grumpy too!

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shockponie

It sounds like your MIL may be jealous of your progress.  Try and take it as a positive, you are obviously looking good!

I had a 1.5 day yesterday (only got a short walk in) and 2 points today.  No further weight loss to report though sadly.

^ I agree with that comment.

=) Maybe there's been some inches though?

Thanks kiwimlp. I'm trying to stay positive. It just seemed unwarranted when the scale hasn't moved in a week. Ah well... Still chugging along!

Well, just because the scale hasn't budged doesn't mean you might not be looking fabulous =) I bet you've lost some inches and you probably look toned too!

Wed 2 points.....did a weigh in but no change:( but it wasnt too long after i ate so that can cause a no change.

Day 4 banana and milk day!!!!! I am a huge milk drinker so yeah and its nice to have something more breckfast like then just soup!

Hmmm one goal was to be better at practicing my music.....i do practice daily....but i really could be doing better. Some sings are finalky getting easier to play so i am excited but i really could try and push for more practice time:)

I'm glad that you've been practicing every day. Maybe at the end you could record something for us on Youtube so we could hear you. It could be your own Pony Recital

^ maybe for your weigh ins, do them first thing in the morning before you've eaten or drank anything (and gone to the bathroom)? Keep going, honey.. you'll get there.


I feel pretty bad for being a kind of negative black raincloud in here, as I can't say I can bring good news today either. I hope I'm not getting on anyone's nerves.. I'm sorry everyone.

Clinic, have lost 0.7kg since tuesday.. bringing me to 44.6kg, my lowest weight ever. Having an assessment from one of the hospitals next week.. don't know what's happening yet, it'll either be intensive outpatient care (my outreach worker sees me everyday and I have 3 clinics a week on top of that) or I'll be put into inpatient care for a minimum of 3 months. And I have been trying, so damn hard, but nothing seems to be good enough!! I still lost weight after increasing my intake..

My specialist has been so so lovely.. aw, she said if she could she'd take me home with her and keep me.
She said I can try my very best to do what I can manage.. just to try and stay here somehow, so I'm continuing to fight. My stomach currently feels like it's about to explode. :c

I'm sorry you're still losing weight hun. Hopefully, your clinics go better. I don't think you're a black raincloud (today is just a day for Winnie-The-Pooh songs for me!), I just think that most of us don't know what to tell you that we haven't already said All we can say now is that we are here for you, when you're ready to reach out.

Brightside you are not a downer...hugs

Milk always helps my stomach when its off...would that help? Just a random idea. I know this is the dark time but i know you are going to overcome this and it will be your inspiration story:)

Peppermint tea is my go-to when I'm feeling nauseous. It helps settle my tummy. Peppermint candy does too. It's something I picked up from my great-grandmother, but it works for me.

No one named Brightside could be a downer

I am only up to 28 points. But I do have my 5 things:

1. I have definitely been snacking less or not at all
2. Since I am not snacking, I have been watching tv less
3. I have been drinking lots of water this summer and I've not found myself getting so warm on hot days
4. I have really been looking at my health and life in general and all the changes I need to make, it feels really positive even though I am not at my destination.
5. I've felt supported. That might not seem like much but I grew up with a martyr mom and part of being a martyr is not letting ones self ever feel supported. I sure appreciate everyone's support and Surfstar, you just plain old ROCK.

Wait, that's 29 points now . I have cub scout camp next week which is giving me major anxiety but it will definitely mean exercise and no cheating on diets. I also scheduled an appointment with a new doctor which is really hard for me to do

I hope your cub scout camp went well hun! I think that your list is awesome and I'm just doing what I can. Really, all of this progress is all on each of you. I'm just here to poke you when needed.

I had a good day.  I finished work early and came home and did a 30 min workout with my skipping rope/exercycle/outdoor step.  I also walked up the hill back to my car.  Have eaten well too.  +2

That sounds like a fun workout! It's good to see that you always get right back on track.

You're my inspiration.

Thursday 2 points. I will miss having milk. Did wii fit about the same time and it said i lossed a pound!!! Woot so 136.... just shy of my mini goal of 135...but for me ti reward myself i have to maintain it for a week!

Which brings me to my 5 point. I wanted to push myself and see what i am made of...it started slow...but it has gotten better...with reaching a mini goal and maintaining it will a test of what i can do and hopes to pull forward.

Day 5....almost done. Beef and tomatos. I like the really small ones because they are sweet...it helps as my hubbie has had cake and ice cream each day this week:p normally i just cook up ground beef and add it to the soup. Makes the soup so much more yummy....by now you get really sick of it:p

I think setting and maintaining mini-goals is a good way to keep yourself engaged I'm glad that you're almost at your first goal!

I'm pretty sure I would have been sick of the soup the first day. I also don't like cabbage… so there's that too!

56 points yay! i got up real early this morning hoping to snag a Ditzy Doo

Awesome!! I also got up early. I was able to get one but she's already been claimed by a friend of mine for her daughter. Only reason I was up trying since I'd gotten one from eBay for about the same price earlier that week.

I've kind of thought about this weeks challenge to myself, because some of the things are a little more personal.. But I have noticed changes in myself through this, both mentally and physically. 

As long as you're thinking about it and noticing changes! I think that's entirely what counts.

I haven't been working out at all due to my online class.. been sitting online the last week or so doing hw and readings. But I've been under my calorie goals and I'm down another lb! I think because I've upped my water intake a ton now that I'm doing this class cause I'm fighting boredom eating by drinking non stop.

Gosh, me either. These 5 week classes are killing me. I'm so ready for my normal semester to start with it's nicely paced 16 week classes!

I'm glad to hear about your progress though! That is totally awesome!

ARGH  Helped a friend move today so definitely got the exercise down. lol

Thanks/.  My muscles hate me though. 

Oh yes! I both hate and love moving. I'm not looking forward to doing it next June myself.

Or they love you and are now telling you at the top of their little voices.

been doing a little better on the exercise part but worse on the eating part....  I cannot get ddr set up right now because mom has taken control of that room, but i found 2 more of the games at the thrifty and i got a 10lb weight (which is also a great doorstop when im not using it!!! lol)   Breaks of my bike are fail, so i cant go on any downhill slopes, but at least i got the tires filled up and am riding around on it... ^_^  I havnt been able to keep track of points again, but i think im like 20 total???  real failishness but im trying!!!  It was so easier doing this at school and not at home.... sadface... o well!   ^_^  I m working on it!!! ^_^  Now that i have some free time im going to get on the ball with this!!! (and get other things that need done, done! )  Much love to you all!!! <3  good luck

Weights DO make awesome door stops! It sounds like you're doing okay despite everything so I would just say, keep doing what you're doing! I always think that there will be some fluctuation in eating habits when we first start a new exercise routine.

We're here and you're always welcome to send me PM's!

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Most days have been 2-pointers since my surgery.  I'm doing all my PT exercises (3 stretches), using my leg machine for at least the 9 hour a day minimum (usually more), and using my ice.  I've been eating as healthy as I can, but the hubby isn't much of a cook and I'm not in a place where I can prepare our meals yet.  So there has been lots of frozen stuff.  Still, my pain meds have me so sick to my stomach that I'm not eating the huge proportions I would normally go for and I've been staying within my calories.

Today though, my mom brought me Wendy's.  First fast food in ages and it waas GOOD! Then dad came to see me and cook dinner... and he brought burgers!  He grilled them and I ate half of mine (it was terrible and so dry, but nobody wanted to tell him).  So lots of burgers today.  I haven't tracked all my calories, but I doubt I stayed in my limits.  Just one point for me today.

Woo hoo! I'm glad to see that things are going well with you. It's awesome that you're following the Dr's orders and i'm sure you'll be up and around again soon.

My hubby's idea of cooking is to get take-out so I empathize with you there! The occasional splurge in food I think is sometimes good for your body =)

Friday 0 points....I ate a cookie:( I then sat on my but the whole rest of the day....I was tired but I could have done dishes something simple but not overwhelming. Today would have been Day 6 with meat and veggies....well it has been broken. I have done this diet many times in my life and I think I have develop a rejection to the soup....I just could not eat any more of it....so I had a pop tart and coffee for breckfast. I am going to have the soup for lunch and dinner until the soup is gone. it can go bad quickly as there is little to preserve it...so. Like I have said I have done this many times....and I have lost 5 to 10 pounds...so far only 1...but it could be more I have not checked today. I have noticed I am slimmer and look slimer in my back and arms and wasit...my thighs are not rubbing anymore....I hope to have measurements at sometime. My hubbie made the comment that if I would just keep maintaining my weight I would not have to do this diet....those words have finally stuck with me....I know now that my active level needs to be higher to maintain the weight I want....

So my new goals is building my activity level each week. I am going to start with my mini exercise plan. Do 10 of scirros crunches, crunches and bike crunches. 10 arm movements and 10 leg movements. This will hopefully be in the morning...if I can get my jump rope to work...next week I will focus on doing this in the afternoon...but keeping up a nightly routine of some activity weather it is chores or working out:)

I am a bit bummbed that I could not keep up the diet but I am glad I tried and at least people here got a chance to really see how it goes.

I think bumping up your exercise is a much better plan than an all soup diet. Just my 2 cents. I think that your measurements will show some definite improvement. I'm not making myself any promises about doing more activity until it gets a bit cooler where I am!

I'm sorry that you weren't able to stick with it, but I think your new plan is a whole lot healthier. There aren't any short cuts.

Ew I just burned my toast. Totally nutricious!

Have ran out of cereal, so I'm existing on toasted Milk Roll (the bread of my childhood.. it's low cal but full of calcium which I don't get otherwise) with either a little peanut butter or Marshmallow Fluff, the occasional piece of fudge, a few supplement drinks and Diet Coke.

I've actually made a video which can be viewed on my tumblr (YouTube link doesn't work in all countries) detailing my journey, from the very start. I made it to inform those who know me what the reality of my disorder is, and to eradicate popular misconceptions I'm presented with. If any incentive is needed, it has cringey childhood pics of me in it

http://betrayedby-b0nes.tumblr.com/post/27636375471

Burnt toast is the worst thing ever (<-- I always hear that in Rarity's voice in my head).

Your video is definitely interesting, I think that it takes real courage and bravery to be able to post stuff like that.

All i can say brightside is i am proud of you....that had to be so hard. Each picture shows the hope promise and streangth you have...there may be tears in your eyes but there is a fight in your heart and soul...my prayers go out to you. I hope more and more people watch and see this video. I think more would understand it and seek help sooner....brave thing you have done:) hugs

*hugs BrightSide*  Hang in there, I hope that eventually you will be able to overcome this and be healthy and happy.  You're a beautiful young woman and you deserve all the happiness in the world.  I can't imagine how hard this must be for you! 

^ I agree with both of these comments.

Oh yummy, burnt toast.    :hugs to brightside:  Your hope and perseverance is very inspiring, kiddo.  You keep it up!

Oh, didn't you know? Burnt Toast is the *new* thing

I'm sorry guys, I feel like I've barely been posting. I don't have 5 positive changes to list, but here's the best I've got.

1- more energy.
2- having a little more acceptance for my body.

I honestly feel like I've barely made any progress in the weeks that I've been doing this, so I haven't had any other positive changes. But exercising more does give me more energy, and I have been making an effort to see myself with less judgmental eyes, so there's that at least.

2 things are better than 0 things. I think that you've probably made more progress than you think. Sometimes its just very hard for us to see our own progress. I'm glad that you can see a few things and hopefully by the end of this you'll have a couple more to add onto it.

Just remember, I'm only a PM away if you need something.

You are not alone!  It seems to take soooo long for any weight-loss/changes to actually show. I have now lost a grand total of 9kgs and not ONE person has noticed enough to comment (shows how fat I was huh?).  At least you are feeling more energetic.  That is definitely one of the positives I have noticed too.  Keep on plugging.  This thread is about healthy habits and if you create and stick to them, your efforts will show through eventually

I got 2 points for yesterday and 2 points for today.

Urg. Yes! It always seems like it takes forever! I find that people around me don't notice though because they see me everyday so they don't *see* the changes either. I get the most comments from people I haven't seen in a while.

I hope everyone is doing well. I am not participating in this, I just wanted to say what a great idea keep up the good work you all can do it

Thank you for the encouragement!

iv done so well this wek sorry i havent posted every day but ive kept myself busy

Busy is good! I know I've felt like I've been super busy!

A big fat 0 for yesterday. >P

Sad face. You'll do better tomorrow!

Quick update (Sorry I've lost track of this thread so bad!)

Went for a wander around a car bootsale this morning so got out of the house :yay: haven't had pizza for, two weeks? And my coca-cola habit has been well and truly knocked on the head, I haven't had any for so long now (since I last posted, that's got to be over a week ago.) Now drinking still and fizzy flavoured water. Bit of a difference, and yes I still do fancy something cola-ish occasionally but I'm sticking to it

Fizzy-flavored water is a great alternative! I do the same thing actually and sometimes just getting the 'bubbles' satisfies any 'soda' craving I might have had. It sounds like you're doing great!

2 points for sat and sunday! Having one meal be normal food and 2 meals be soup have made it easier to diet...bumbed up my ddr work out and rekindeling my love of wii fit...hang in there this is my top of the hill moment...i can always have a set back:) just make things stronger...no extra snacks.....but with my diet i really cant...but that could help beat the urges later.

it's great to see you moving forward in such a positive manner! I think you're doing just fine.

2 for today.  I had grilled chicken and brown rice for a late lunch/dinner and then had some fruit for dinner.  Did my stretches and have been using my leg machine all day.

Mmmm. Your dinner sounds delicious. I think I know what I'm making for dinner tonight!

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I love coming here and reading everyone's updates.  Big qudos to those who are giving up soda drinks.  They are so addictive and SO bad for you.  I used to love coke but about 8 years ago I made the decision to give it up.  It was sooo hard at first but now when I am thirsty all I crave is water.

Crowning_Glory13, I am interested to read about your cabbage soup diet.  It wouldn't suit me because I would DIE without carbs but I am really interested to follow your progress.

I am coming down with a cold so I scaled my exercise back to just 30 mins walking on the flat today as that is all I felt up to.  I've eaten super well to cover for any difference.  2 points today.

Also, after the scales not shifting for quite some time, it seems I have lost 1kg in 3 days!  I am now at a grand total of 9.5kgs

Sometimes I think it just takes time for our bodies to catch up. There's a lot going on but I think your progress is totally awesome!

I would also not want to live without some carbs, though I keep mine fairly low most of the time. Great job on compensating for your cold too!

Bleh, sorry I've not posted in so long! I've been thinking about my 5 things, and am going to put them in my notebook/food diary. Exercise is still hit and miss, but I'm managing to stay within my food totals

These things happen! I'm glad you're staying on track with food though.

ok! 1pt for sat  and zippo for yesterday.....  grad parties kill me!  :/  so 21! woo.  I had given up mostly on mt dew back in the last go at this, but current circumstances and it being my comfort drink, it has not been good at all!  :/  sadface!  So im trying to drink sparingly, and finish whats already at the house.... and then try to only drink it when not at home... because if it's here i could drown in it.... well... at least it's better than booze! ^_^  lol    so i ve been working with my 10 lb weight!!! woo !!! ^_^  and if it wasnt so hot out id be using my ankle weights,  but they are not worth it in this heat! :/ 

gonna do the 5 changes ... better late than never! ^_^

1.  I dont munch while tv or computering.
2.  feel stronger
3.  more energy
4.  Fit into pants!!! ^_^
5.  I actually WANT to exercise and eat right!!!!!  No more forcing....for the most part... ^_^   WOO

This list is awesome! I'm glad to see that you're making some very awesome changes!

Kiwimlp - as for the diet it can be hard....I LOVE crabs too. But you are only on the diet for a week. I have shed 7-10 pounds on it. I had not shed as much this time, but I think that is due to giving up a bit early. I had 3 days to go...but I had a cookie...yeah I know its not a big deal but it just made me crash the rest of the diet. I have a hard time eating the soup as it is summer. A bit too hot for soup. So I have a lot of soup left. So I am still on the diet but it has changed. For 2 meals I eat soup. I can pick one meal to be what I want. Hubby wanted to eggs for breakfast...so my non soup meal was breakfast. Sunday there was pasta I wanted. So lunch was my free meal. It has helped out a lot. I can eat any fruit or veggie I want. I did have part of a desert on Monday with my hubby. With starting this diet...I have noticed it does not take me much to get full. So my portion control has improved:) Its not easy but it is well worth it.

I have reached my mini goal of 135!!!! but I can not celebrate until I have maintained it for 7 days. I have travel and a birthday party to attend so holding it might be hard to keep. I have made a promise to myself that I would not go over 135 again. When ever I am over I just feel so horrible about myself. I finally can wear a pair of jeans I haven't been able to for years!

I am glad to see how people are progressing:) There is always going to be a hill to climb and a fall to break, but many celebrations in your future:)

SurfStar...take care of school and everything first:) We are here to understand and support you:)

I'm glad to see that your portion control is getting better and super congrats on getting to your Mini-Goal! Once those 7 days are up and I think you'll do just fine.

I'm working on school and stuff, fortunately, I'm starting to feel like I'm back to normal again. Going to have to take a bunch of pictures over the rest of the week though!

I weighed myself the other day and I literally have not budged.  I guess it shouldn't be surprising since I was not able to exercise much before surgery and not at all now, but still.  *sigh*  I guess it's good that I haven't GAINED weight though, considering that the most activity I have in a day is getting from the couch to the bathroom a few times a day. 

Weekly Challenge:

Part 1:
I have done well with both of my surgeries.  I am as mobile as you could expect at this point and I have been very good about getting all of my suggested time (usually more) on the machine that moves my leg for me.  I go back in to the doctor on Thursday to have my stitches out and I expect that my surgeon will tell me that I am doing very well.  I'll start my PT sometime after next week and that's when the real fun beings.

Part 2:
Some of my plans have worked very well.  I have been pretty good about my exercise, taking long walks with my dogs and busting my butt (literally) at PT before my second surgery.  Since surgery, I have had to be very careful about any activity (if I overdo it at this point, I could end up with a permanent limp), but I have been very good about my stretches and using my CPM (the machine that moves my leg for me).

The changes in my diet have been harder.  Several times when I have gone out with my husband, I've ordered a salad instead of a burger.  Or if I splurge on something less healthy, I set aside half to take home in an attempt to control portions.  But the last couple weeks have been harder, since I'm not in any shape to cook my own food.  The hubby specializes in frozen meals, which are easy (he doesn't really know how to cook a fresh meal unless it's on a grill) but high in sodium.  We have chicken nuggets and fries at least twice a week.  I sleep a lot, which means that I usually only end up eating 2 meals in a day, so I've done ok calorie-wise.  But it still doesn't feel healthy.  In about 3 weeks, I should be mobile enough around the home to start cooking again.  I am really going to try to focus on fresh food, lots of veggies, and I am debating cutting out all (or at least most) gluten from my diet for a while.  My tummy has been unstable for a few years and I tend to get bizarre mystery abdominal pain (been to the hospital for it before because I was afraid it was my appendix after calling the nurse hotline on the back of my insurance card).  I'm beginning to wonder if I have a bit of a gluten intolerance, so I'm going to try that.

It sounds like you're doing good with your goals and that you're able to re-evaluate as needed. I personally think you're doing just fine and that your body might also be retaining some weight to use while repairing the muscles and other stuff affected by your surgery. Human beings have very complicated systems.

Good luck with the gluten! I make a lot of stuff gluten free since I have friends that are allergic. It's caused me to be very creative with how I cook certain things now.

Yay for a new challenge, but I am so sad to hear we are at the half way point of Healthy Habits.  I'm really enjoying the support of this thread- and I know I won't be done with my weight loss once it's over.

=) We can always keep up the thread. I'm sure someone will pick it back up. I might try and run another formal one, but it wouldn't be until next June.

Same here! I've enjoyed the support! This week is the last week of my online class which means starting next week, I can get back on track with my exercise!

Maybe after this we'll just create a support thread for anyone to join and comment in.

I'm still alive Will try the challenges tomorrow.

Glad to hear it!

Even with all the wonderful support I've not been doing well  Despite keeping track of what I eat and consciously trying to assess why I'm eating and make better choices, I've gained weight and my eating habits are as out of control as ever. A lot of this is linked to my worsening depression and I've made a doctors appointment next week to try and get some help. I wish food wasn't always such a huge deal, that I could just eat when I was hungry and every meal wouldn't be this huge deal.

Responded to both you and Renee on page 74 too, but just know that I am proud of you for working on getting help with your depression. Maybe start keeping a food-emotion journal so you can start seeing how certain foods trigger, help certain emotions.

Positive....i push my students to strive for perfection...hard teacher sometimes but always with kindness.

Only 1 point today. I had 2 cookies at the bank...i am not so upset because they are free but i should have only had one:p

My cravings are stronger then ever...but the diet is helping me a lot.

I don't know if striving for perfection is a good thing. I do think that they should always try their best and give 100%, but that doesn't always mean it will be *perfect* either.

I'm glad the diet is helping you.

Well said! I agree, it's been such a good kickstart for me.

As mentioned, maybe after this, we'll just have a support thread for everyone.

I have done well for most of this weekend.. There was one day this week that I only received 1 point as I wasn't able to exercise. This weekend I somehow missed keeping track of Friday and Saturday- I must have been in la la land. I know I got 1 point on Saturday, but unsure about Friday. Sunday was a 2 point day.

Did you enjoy the trip at least? I think sometimes it's good just to toss everything to the winds.

As an additional update, I am going to try to start cutting out wheat ASAP.  The hubby ordered pizza tonight and I ate a couple of his crusts, that's all.  Within 30 minutes my stomach knotted up and I'm super gassy (sorry tmi).  I definitely think that my tummy is trying to tell me something.  So I'm adding that to my list.

I would be too! At least you're doing a great job of listening to what your body has to tell you!

My positive for the day:  I looked at a new pair of boots that would look great with skinny jeans. I did not buy them but I have promised myself that WHEN I am slim I will buy a pair for myself that I love.

1 point for exercise (walk on the flat again due to a cold) and 1 point for eating.

Or buy a rocking pair now and look awesome in them still You will get there though! Hang a picture of those jeans on your mirror to remind you.

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[LeighAnnApanites]

I hate to be whiny, but I could sure use some pony hugs. I am just in a terrible mood. I want to cry and yell at people all at the same time. At the moment it's taking the shape of me being horrible to myself over my weight and I can't talk myself out of it, even though I've got several positives going on at the moment. 1) I did not stop and get fast food on my way to my tai chi class even though that was hard, because I'm being moody and want to eat junk food. I had a granola bar instead and fixed dinner when I got home. 2) I went to tai chi and had a good workout, even though I'd rather have stayed home sulking on the couch. 3) I haven't given up yet, although I'm tired as the dickens of having to start over . . . and over . . . and over . . . you get the idea.  4) I've lost a little and I haven't gained any weight back yet, although my efforts have been really haphazard. 5) I've got an index card with a list of exercises I can do in little bits whenever I think about it (i.e. 25 jumping jacks, 10 push-ups, dance around for 1 minute, that sort of thing). And this is really just a few things.

I'm sick of being miserable over this and yet apparently not wanting to change enough to put in enough effort to make the difference. But I AM making progress and I AM getting better and I AM accomplishing it, I'm just so sad and discouraged right now, and it's not even really about being fat, that's just the outlet it's taking, but I don't know what it is that's really bothering me.

I know it'll go away, I just have to muddle through in the meantime. Thank you so much for reading this and for all your support, everypony. It means the world.

[SurfStar]

I hate to be whiny, but I could sure use some pony hugs. I am just in a terrible mood. I want to cry and yell at people all at the same time. At the moment it's taking the shape of me being horrible to myself over my weight and I can't talk myself out of it, even though I've got several positives going on at the moment. 1) I did not stop and get fast food on my way to my tai chi class even though that was hard, because I'm being moody and want to eat junk food. I had a granola bar instead and fixed dinner when I got home. 2) I went to tai chi and had a good workout, even though I'd rather have stayed home sulking on the couch. 3) I haven't given up yet, although I'm tired as the dickens of having to start over . . . and over . . . and over . . . you get the idea.  4) I've lost a little and I haven't gained any weight back yet, although my efforts have been really haphazard. 5) I've got an index card with a list of exercises I can do in little bits whenever I think about it (i.e. 25 jumping jacks, 10 push-ups, dance around for 1 minute, that sort of thing). And this is really just a few things.

I'm sick of being miserable over this and yet apparently not wanting to change enough to put in enough effort to make the difference. But I AM making progress and I AM getting better and I AM accomplishing it, I'm just so sad and discouraged right now, and it's not even really about being fat, that's just the outlet it's taking, but I don't know what it is that's really bothering me.

I know it'll go away, I just have to muddle through in the meantime. Thank you so much for reading this and for all your support, everypony. It means the world.

Well then

I think that everyone is entitled to feel a little whiny once in a while. Heck, if it makes you feel better have a full blown tantrum. I think that you're doing an excellent job of making good choices and not falling prey to emotional eating or doing things that you know later will make you feel 'guilty'. Overall, small successes are what you're looking for because generally those are what will be sustained over a long period of time.

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Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.
Yesterday I realised just how much snacking I was doing before the challenge. I've cut out so much more than I thought! I don't have a scales but I've definitely shrunk a little bit

Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you.
Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.
I struggled so much with one of the challenges to the point where I nearly made myself ill, threw strops etc etc. But at the end of the day, it was only a banana I wanted to eat. But....bananas are disgusting. I couldn't do it. At the end of the day it was just a banana - there is no way I should have set myself a challenge that I would find impossible to do.
In everyday life I'm constantly challenging myself to overcome my disabilities - sometimes I can do it, sometimes I can't. I've learnt to not ask myself to do something that I know I just can't do. I have my limitations and of course I need to stretch myself, but not try to attain the impossible So that's one life lesson learnt from the experience
I had a teeny mouthful of cola this morning (just woke up, old bottle was still by the bed, half asleep and took a mouthful) and I'm fine with that as I don't crave it any more and don't think I could drink a whole glass of it if I wanted to! I still have the occasional caffeine drink but my main beverage of choice is now flavoured water, or carbonated water if I need something fizzy. I never thought after twenty something years of having what was basically a cola addiction that I could stop! I didn't think I'd say this but I am so proud of me
I'm still eating the occasionally packet of crisps but I'm not replacing a meal with a 6-pack anymore. Which is an achievement I even ate an apple the other day! (I hate fruit. Give me veggies any day of the week!!!)

So yeah the past six weeks have been my own personal struggle with drama, strops, eye-opening moments and stuff but it's been worth it. Roll on the next six weeks - I'm pretty sure I can keep this up!

I'm pretty proud of you too! I think that you've made some amazing changes and I hope that you'll be able to look back on some of these things later and laugh

My positive for yesterday was that I helped out my mom. She had to stay home sick yesterday so I brought her things she needed and took care of things around the house so she could relax.
Now she is feeling a lot better today.

That is awesome! I always feel better after helping others.

Positve for the day 2 students are ready for a contest wed!!!! Send good vibes and prayers for a win:) they deserve it and they worked very hard:)

Wanting more music practice.....it started good then did very little and now i am so excited to play that i have to learn 3 pieces....that will take awhile. I need to manage my excitement.

I almost bought candy for myself today....but i passed it up!!!!!!

Congrats! I'm glad to see you taking control of your diet. I'm sending your students good thoughts!

I'm kind of annoyed at myself for today, firstly for the morning.. I started having a hypo when we were out (well done) so we had to rush to the nearest newsagents for sugar.. not diabetic, but I get really low sugars sometimes bc of reduced intake. Also, I managed some food from the children's 3-7 menu.. but panicked and purged. Damnit why can't I just.. idk

Yesterday I found out that the A&E doctors hadn't told us that my Potassium levels are actually abnormal. 
Why they didn't tell us I really don't know.. but I've been thinking about this a lot (what it's doing).


Challenge:
Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.
I have managed to stay out of inpatient care so far. Although it's still under question, I haven't given myself credit lately for actually pulling along and not letting things spiral to even worse points, and now I feel a little less hesitant to reach for the support I need with my specialist.


Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you. Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.

- I need to review my plans and goals. I still haven't begun recovery, and compared to the girl who was in treatment with me.. she's hit her target weight, but my progress is very slow.. if not backwards (initially they thought it'd be the other way around!)

- I have definitely become more aware of my tendancies and habits. I don't have an understanding of them yet, but now I'm beginning to accept and acknowledge things a lot more than I would've done previously. I've also put full trust into my specialist, which I used to find tough at times. This makes me feel better supported.

- I think my goals instead should work more towards finding an understanding to my feelings towards (certain) foods, working out a better way to approach and deal with these feelings. I've been trying to run before I can walk (perhaps crawl would be more accurate ) and that's not the way to tackle things.

I think that you're finally starting to take a realistic look at this and what you can do. I am very proud of you for looking at and being so honest with yourself. I think that you definitely need to look more at the feelings associated with the foods and hopefully you can make more progress.

Just wanted you to know brightside...that your posts have become more and more positive:)

I have read others wishing this can last forever....well it can. I am willing to stay past the end. You can keep the 2 point system or just post knowing that a pony friend is watching. Many of the past healthy ponies liked this because they had someone or something to answer to...well i am one of those ponies that will stay and read your posts and see if there is something i can help contribute:)

^ I pretty much agree with this post.

^ thank you, lovely.

I know I don't always respond to replies in the thread, but I read each one.. and it's lovely knowing that there's an encouraging, supporting pony friend there rooting for you!!

My postive for the day is that I took my husband over to pick up his car (without complaining, lol!). 
As far as assessing my plans and results over the last few weeks, I am very happy with how things are going and my weight loss.  One thing I was discussing with my friend (who is also dieting) though is to watch my carb intake.  I tend to over-do the bread/pasta/potatos and that slows my weight loss.

I only walked to and from the auction today so .5 for exercise + 1 pt for eating

Any little thing! I think you're doing great so far!

I also love carbs, I come from an italian family and… boy does it show.

95% chance I'm going inpatient within the next few weeks. Having an assessment on Tuesday.. no idea where I'm going to end up :c it's so scary.. I'm struggling to comprehend it at this moment in time. wow..

I am so sorry sweetie.
2 things:

1. Send me your address, regardless of where you are I'd like you to be able to get your box. This way I can also send you letters while you are there. Sometimes it helps to know that you've got someone outside of family that is thinking about you.

2. I'm still here for you You've got a lot of people on your side.

Part 1:
Each day, pick out one positive thing that you feel you contributed to OR about yourself.

Monday i felt i gained so cofidace when talking to my bfs friends
tuesday helped a bit more around the house

Part 2:
Take some time to look back over the last 6 weeks, ask yourself and evaluate how well your goals and plans have worked for you. Have you learned to be a little flexible and make different choices? Are you happy with how things are working out? Do you see the need for some changes in the next 6 weeks? Take some time this week to evaluate what is and what might not be working so well for you right now.
i think ive thought more about what im doing im happper lately i need to contiue to change in the next few weeks

I'm glad to hear about your changes. I think that as long as you're feeling happier, you're definitely on the right track!

After this I should be back to responding to the thread, each of you, at least once a day. Please remember that anyone (everyone) is also welcome to PM me.

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Checking in! My life has gotten super busy, which is great.. keeps me active and away from the computer. I've had a hard time following my planned schedule because of a lot of changes that have happened to me in the past month. I'm no longer sleeping too late though, and I'm able to put in quite a few hours of work every day. My days still need to become more stabilized, but getting there!