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While my Mom recently died of cancer (in such a painful way I wish nobody else to experience) Im still fussing about a dentist appointment which is today (half an hour to go)... gosh, Im pathetic.
Quote from: Einhornbaby on August 20, 2019, 01:40:39 AMWhile my Mom recently died of cancer (in such a painful way I wish nobody else to experience) Im still fussing about a dentist appointment which is today (half an hour to go)... gosh, Im pathetic. So this happened a few days ago, but I was waiting at the bus stop for the bus back from the carboot sale.THis guy and his daughter and grandson are there waiting too.He sees I have a bus pass and he looks at me and then is like, "don't people ever challenge you or look at you funny because you have a disabled bus pass and you're young?" And I said, no, nobody ever has. And he grinned at me and tapped his old person's pass and said, "I bet they do, behind your back. I earned mine."Not sure how being old is earning a bus pass, given that unlike him I can never drive, and unlike him, I'm literally in danger because of my inability to navigate, so buses are my lifeline.SpoilerExample, same bus route, when parents were visiting - bus ignored the stop I wanted and stopped at the next one. I flat out panicked because I had no idea how to get back to the stop I wanted and to the destination we needed because the bus had turned a corner and it threw my navigation completely. Fortunately parents were there so it was fine, but otherwise who knows.People who make visual assumptions are not cool in my book. My navigation is so bad that if a landmark changes I don't know where I am, or sometimes I can be on a bus route I know and look out the window and recognise nothing. Only London buses tell me where I am at every stop so I tend to remember stop names in order so I know where to get off and when I'm getting close. When I tell people I can't navigate they're often like, oh yeah, I'm bad at that too - but it's not like that. I'm physically incapable of forming routes or sequences, so it's not "oh, I get a bit lost but GPS can help". It's I can't read maps, can't tell left from right, can't orientate myself, can't follow ambiguous signposts, and if I turn around I might completely forget where I came from or how to get back. And even if I know the area I can still get completely lost within a hundred yards, because if my brain resets a route, I don't know where I am.My parents have lived in the same area for almost 30 years. If I want to go for a walk beyond the local shop, 4 mins away, my sister or one of my parents have to go with me. The one time I tried to go on my own recently I got lost and it took me 30 minutes to find my way back. I was about 6 minutes from home at the time and I grew up here. Even the walk I took to school for 5 years every day now throws me because the school got demolished so now I no longer have a landmark to fix on.It already bugs me that people don't realise how serious that is if you don't have something helping you (like I use buses).Yet apparently I shouldn't have a bus pass, because I didn't 'earn it'.The article about the winning joke at the Fringe Festival reminded me of this experience, and makes me realise yet again that disability is still treated as a joke or an attempt to get special favours, rather than an actual life challenge.Fortunately at the time I was so stunned by what he said I kind of dismissed it. But it only really dawned on me later the implications of what that guy said, and when I told my parents they were really angry since they know how much I fought to get that bus pass (it took me 2 years and a ton of evidence, I didn't just get given it for having a few birthdays). By his standards, I definitely 'earned it'.
Quote from: Ponyfan on August 19, 2019, 05:46:54 PMThe 2 Japanese songs I wanted to buy on iTunes are not on US iTunes. PonyfanI feel your pain.I'm usually amazed when one of the tunes I want IS on Itunes, and I don't have to plough through either auctions or amazon.jp and sell my soul.
The 2 Japanese songs I wanted to buy on iTunes are not on US iTunes. Ponyfan
Quote from: Ponyfan on August 19, 2019, 05:46:54 PMThe 2 Japanese songs I wanted to buy on iTunes are not on US iTunes. PonyfanI identify with this too! I love German and Hungarian musicals. I can usually find the German ones, but Deezer (my go-to for listening to music) doesn't seem to have heard of Hungary....Then of course my favourite Hungarian actor releases a CD and it's not available to buy internationally :cries:. I must stop loving such obscure things!!
So this happened a few days ago, but I was waiting at the bus stop for the bus back from the carboot sale.THis guy and his daughter and grandson are there waiting too.He sees I have a bus pass and he looks at me and then is like, "don't people ever challenge you or look at you funny because you have a disabled bus pass and you're young?" And I said, no, nobody ever has. And he grinned at me and tapped his old person's pass and said, "I bet they do, behind your back. I earned mine."Not sure how being old is earning a bus pass, given that unlike him I can never drive, and unlike him, I'm literally in danger because of my inability to navigate, so buses are my lifeline.SpoilerExample, same bus route, when parents were visiting - bus ignored the stop I wanted and stopped at the next one. I flat out panicked because I had no idea how to get back to the stop I wanted and to the destination we needed because the bus had turned a corner and it threw my navigation completely. Fortunately parents were there so it was fine, but otherwise who knows.People who make visual assumptions are not cool in my book. My navigation is so bad that if a landmark changes I don't know where I am, or sometimes I can be on a bus route I know and look out the window and recognise nothing. Only London buses tell me where I am at every stop so I tend to remember stop names in order so I know where to get off and when I'm getting close. When I tell people I can't navigate they're often like, oh yeah, I'm bad at that too - but it's not like that. I'm physically incapable of forming routes or sequences, so it's not "oh, I get a bit lost but GPS can help". It's I can't read maps, can't tell left from right, can't orientate myself, can't follow ambiguous signposts, and if I turn around I might completely forget where I came from or how to get back. And even if I know the area I can still get completely lost within a hundred yards, because if my brain resets a route, I don't know where I am.My parents have lived in the same area for almost 30 years. If I want to go for a walk beyond the local shop, 4 mins away, my sister or one of my parents have to go with me. The one time I tried to go on my own recently I got lost and it took me 30 minutes to find my way back. I was about 6 minutes from home at the time and I grew up here. Even the walk I took to school for 5 years every day now throws me because the school got demolished so now I no longer have a landmark to fix on.It already bugs me that people don't realise how serious that is if you don't have something helping you (like I use buses).Yet apparently I shouldn't have a bus pass, because I didn't 'earn it'.The article about the winning joke at the Fringe Festival reminded me of this experience, and makes me realise yet again that disability is still treated as a joke or an attempt to get special favours, rather than an actual life challenge.Fortunately at the time I was so stunned by what he said I kind of dismissed it. But it only really dawned on me later the implications of what that guy said, and when I told my parents they were really angry since they know how much I fought to get that bus pass (it took me 2 years and a ton of evidence, I didn't just get given it for having a few birthdays). By his standards, I definitely 'earned it'.
My depression has been hitting me hard lately