I haven't really kept up with G4 brushables (though it seems to me there's been precious few
) but tonight, for obvious reasons, I bought Nurse Redheart at Walgreens. It got me thinking about how much I miss ponies, and how much I miss being here. This is always the friendliest bunch, and compared to other message boards, I'm never hesitate to post for fear I'll be ripped apart because I'm not witty or cool. It's been a while, but I have been reading topics here and there. I was going through some dark times a while back and I got lots of good support here, so I figure I owe it to anyone who cares to give a happier update:
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I finally sold my house in the suburbs, which was not only the last vestige of my failed marriage, but also costing me too much money to manage. The closing was one of the most stressful things I've ever been through in my life, much wine was consumed, threats were made, and I almost walked on ~$1800, but in the end, IT'S DONE! I'm free of that house, that town, and symbolically, every failed promise my ex made. The remaining animals and I are settling into a little townhouse in a trendy area of town, and it's good to be back. I'm exploring the nightlife, reminiscing about when I lived in this area "back in the day" and decorating my place the way I want it, finally! (Chalk paint tips, anyone?) The dog is adjusting to not having a yard and having to go potty on a leash every time, and I'm adjusting to sharing space with neighbors and assigned parking, but the plus far outweighs the minus.
I lost a lot of weight. About 50lbs, doing Weight Watchers, which I had done once before but gained it all back and then some. I thought my ex was joking at first when he said "I'm going to fatten you up so you don't get away," but now I'm not so sure. Looking back on it, while he estranged me from all my friends and even tried with my family, he was more than happy to stop cooking so we ate out every night, and buy me pints of Ben and Jerry's two at a time "because I know you love it baby." Not saying I'm not ultimately responsible, but he was super manipulative. Anyway, I'm learning to cook, thinking about what I'm eating, and feeling so good about myself. I went from a US 14/16, L/XL, 36DDD to a 6-10, M/L, 34DD/36D. All has been diet so far, but I'm carefully starting to exercise again, too.
I'm wearing make-up, getting my hair and nails done, and buying new clothes. In the depths of my despair with my ex, I hadn't had my hair done since the wedding and I hardly ever put on make-up, because we never went anywhere and he was already "joking-not-joking" about me cheating while I was at work, so why encourage it? In the process, I lost a huge part of myself and what makes me feel good. I realized that I spent more effort styling my ponies than myself but at the time, lacked the strength to fix it. It's good to look in the mirror and feel pretty and put together again.
I'm back working nights. I worked nights for 6+ years before my back took me away from the bedside, and I thought that maybe an 8-5, M-F might be a good change. Wrong! It's so hard to get anything done. It was hard to leave for a doctor's appointment, and my mom was having to help me do things that didn't require my physical presence, like appointments for the animals or repairs at the house. Non-bedside nursing jobs at night are rare, but my department keeps one person stationed out of the emergency department of our main campus overnight, so I applied for the transfer and was accepted. I'm now working every Fri, Sat, Sun night from 6:30pm-7:00am, and the move also took me out of the little suburban hospital near my old house and moved me to a larger one near my new place. It's tough giving up every weekend, but I get so much done during the week and never have to worry about missing work for an appointment.
I'm cautiously getting back into the dating world with OK Cupid. I don't think I want to get married again, at least not anytime soon, but I would like to find someone to go out with and maybe eventually travel. Nothing to serious, I just want to have some fun.
I just wanted to write this to update anyone who had been wondering where I was, say thanks to those that offered kind words and gestures of support along the way, and let anyone out there who may be going through something similar to what I went through know, IT GETS BETTER!!! :icon clap:
Most of the stuff in my office is still in boxes, and my dad is going to come next week and at least help me move them around (my back is one thing that has not gotten better, and never will). After that, I am so excited to buy some shelves and reorganize and display my pony, FSF, and Uglydoll/plushie collection. On one more positive note, I did finally find my last set-completing plushie dog on ebay that I've been after for 25 years
I'll be posting more now that things are settling down for me. I missed you guys.
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