Rejoining MLPTP after being banned? (pinkiepony)

[PinkiePosh]

First of all, I apologize for making two new threads today. I understand that it's general forum etiquette not to keep making multiple posts and I know I'm going to be on the home page twice. I just returned from an area hiatus so I'm extremely active right now catching up with people. My question is: Can I rejoin MLPTP after being banned 2-3years ago? Before you answer, please read and consider my situation and why I was banned.

[WARNING THIS GETS PERSONAL]

The Situation:
The ban was for failing to communicate with others in a pony swap and not making the deadline to ship things out, as well as a failure to communicate with and ship out my half of a trade with Little Spiffy (seen here in my feedback) which I had resolved with LittleSpiffy on MLP Arena after my ban, seen here in my feedback)

Why:
I joined MLPTP when I was about 15 under the alias pinkiepony. This all went down when I was 16, I believe ( I am 19 now). I am diagnosed with depression (lack of energy, disassociation) , ADD/ADHD (attention problems), executive dysfunction (memory problems) , and autism (social problems amongst other things). I did not have a car (or a job) and had to rely on transportation to the post office. I do not remember the full story, but I had the ponies for my share of the trade, missed the deadline, and didn't have a ride or money for shipping and was afraid to ask for help or tell people what happened, fell depressed, and disappeared from the arena. Around this time I had a suicide attempt and went to the hospital and didn't tell anyone on MLPTP out of shame. I had an ongoing trade with Littlespiffy when that happened and the packages sat in my room for a month or two and I didn't know how to deal with it. I later may have contacted someone and apologized, I think it was Peppermint Truly who had run the trade. I think I was too late and they gave my share of the trade to someone else and rearranged it so my partner would still get something. I have felt extremely guilty about it sense then and I'm afraid I ruined everything when I was 16.

Me now
I am 19, I am an independant artist and hair stylist/makeup artist. I have money and a car, I have been coping with understanding my mental illnesses and communicating with others why I do what I do and working with them to solve problems. I have not attempted in a year or had suicidal thoughts. I have not had any failed trades or sales and I have plenty of ebay and MLP arena feedback.

which brings me to...
can I join again? Is this all in the past? Is there someone I need to speak to? If so, who, and how can I get ahold of them? Or would it be possible for someone to share this thread with an admin on MLPTP?

I'm sure I can just make an account under my new alias, my IP is not banned and I think I just can't log in or create an account as pinkiepony, but it's obvious I am the same person and I'm too afraid of confrontation or being banned again without having a mod decide it was ok for me to join. I want the official thumbs up first, and I'd like to formally apologize to an admin and everyone who was involved that I screwed over. It was nobody's fault but mine.

Thank you so much for reading and I apologize for any confusion or bringing up upsetting topics. I'm not very good at explaining myself sometimes so if you have any questions I'd be happy to answer them in a reply or PM.

Mods, feel free to move this thread to WYP or something if this is too personal. I understand some of the things I talk about are not very happy or fun.

[Jordan]

I'm not one to say, but I'm really happy that you seem to be doing great! as someone with very bad social anxiety it really makes me happy hearing people overcoming those inner demons and pushing forward  

[PinkiePosh]

I'm not one to say, but I'm really happy that you seem to be doing great! as someone with very bad social anxiety it really makes me happy hearing people overcoming those inner demons and pushing forward  

Thank you, I appreciate it! 

[DazzleKitty]

Maybe PM a moderator there and explain?

[hathorcat]

While the TP and the Arena have mostly the same members and obviously the same goal of letting pony collectors talk to one another, we are different boards, with different moderators, different owners, different rules and sometimes making different decisions. However, perhaps the reason both boards have existed so long and in relative harmony is that we do try to respect one anothers boundaries and decisions.

As such I am going to lock this thread up as I dont feel the wider Arena boards are where you should be discussing this situation. Especially without TP moderators and admin being able to have their say in the situation.  It happened on the TP - talk to the TP. And when it comes to decisions made about memberships, from experience here, I know this is not something that either party often wishes to discuss out in the open for personal and professional reasons. We would appreciate someone who had a problem with the Arena, addressing it (and hopefully resolving it) with Arena staff directly and I am sure MBJ and her team will feel the same way.

I shall certainly direct MBJ to this thread but only so that her team are aware of the matter. I would suggest you take the first step of considering a polite email to the TP team to open any discussions.