Thank you guys, you're wonderful

*** Possible trigger warning: mental health and abuse - no major detail, however ***

Hi everyone

I took the plunge in January and quit 'the day job' to do my pony sales full-time and to say I've had a rough time since then would be an understatement.

I wanted to make this post to explain a few things because I have not been on form and that is NOT how I like to operate.

All of my buyers and potential buyers have been utterly amazing. The level of support I've received from people who were total strangers to begin with has blown me away. I now have some new friends and for that I am eternally grateful.

I'm going to keep this brief and to the point (please heed the trigger warning if you are vulnerable etc):

Was in abusive marriage for 10 years, with him for 12 years total. Mostly emotional/ psychological abuse, some physical, some... 'other'
Left him Feb 2015 and did great for a long time, was ecstatic to be out of it and was dealing phenomenally
January 2016 - New Years - it hit. Long story short, was in same place I used to go with him each NY and it was a major trigger
Huge depression
Weird stuff started to happen; again long story short it turns out the anxiety I had constantly while with him was masking Bipolar Disorder but I didn't know that until roughly May this year
Jan-May I was up and down, among other things, without knowing what on earth was going on
Diagnosis - relieved - coping with it now I knew what was going on
However, major event (unrelated) at start of June that I'd been 'preparing for' since February caused massive stress, that led to physical illness, huge drop in body weight, wasn't sleeping or eating properly.
Predicted once it was over I'd "crash and burn" which I did. Expected a week or two - I just came back out of that THIS WEEKEND
In the meantime have only been able to work sporadically and had another bereavement in the family (first was Grandma in Feb - expected). This was cousin, cancer, expected but NOT YET. Huge shock. I was a wreck.
Funeral was Friday and I now have closure and feel more like myself than I have in months.

I feel able to work properly now rather than having to force myself to do so because I'd completely ran out of money. I will be operating to my usual standards now and when times get hard with the bipolar I have people on hand to get me through it and that includes keeping my work up to standard.

So, that's it. But I'm back now. I've thought that at several points and I've been wrong but this feels very different, I'm pleased to say.

I had to explain that for me because I haven't been on form and my working standards have been sub-par to say the least and that IS NOT how I like to operate.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you to everyone who has been there for me, been patient with me and helped me. I love you all, you are angels.

I have a little catch-up to play with regards my current sales, which are mostly on my Facebook page and three to finalise here which I anticipate to be all up to date by mid-week this week.

Thank you again. This community is amazing, it is my pony home and it contains some of the most wonderful people I've ever had the honour of knowing.

Sarah x

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I took people's names out as I wasn't sure on the protocol on that front. I suspect it would be ok as it's all accessible on this site, but I wanted to be safe and err on the side of caution. Once I can PM again I can respond to a PM from a Mod if you need to ask for the name but in the meantime you might be able to access it just by looking what I've been up to here lately (<-- doesn't know how this stuff works)

I didn't want to leave it unmentioned so I posted it here.

I came back to my desk after some time away to find my cat asleep on my keyboard and I think she messed something up. A restart has sorted the issue now

Could you remove the weird  feedback please, so that I can leave it properly?

Thanks so much and SORRY!

And so is Katniss

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Sarah x         

Hex

So glad she has gone somewhere where she will be loved and appreciated as much as she was with me 

Your HT variants are amazing 

Sarah x

Thank you x

White bluebelle is great. I woukd take offers

I was sure she looked nicer when I got her so I gave her the spa treatment and she's scrubbed up lovely

Thank you for your help x