slept late at least it's the weekend. my sleep has been wonky too. i woke up at 2:30am and took about an hour to fall back asleep.

today i need to get everything ready for us to drive to Houston for my MIL's funeral. I also need to go over to my parent's. i haven't felt up to seeing anyone really but i should go over there and visit.

other than that i need to clean the house some and finish trimming the plants in the front yard. i usually water every other day if it doesn't rain so i think if i water before we leave and when we get home they'll be ok.

i get a lot of anxiety when i travel. it's why i don't really go on vacation. it's hard for me to leave the dogs. we're taking one with us and 2 of them will stay with my parents.

such a lovely memorial and beautifully written letter 

yesterday some of my relatives went to visit my parents. i had to work and my husband wasn't up to seeing anyone. i told my parents i would try to come over if i had time during the day. by the time they got to my parent's house it was almost 1pm and i had calls all afternoon. so i told my dad i couldn't come over until after 4. which was too late. then my dad says "oh we can swing by for a few minutes" ugh what part of my husband doesn't want to see anyone and i'm literally going to be on the phone says we want to entertain guests? i told him that was not ok and he said maybe next time. my relatives are super judgy about people's homes and i know i shouldn't care but i at least need a few days notice if they're going to come by. i feel a little bad but also they know i have a job. if they really wanted to see me they could have come on a weekend.

my car oddly still has a CD player even though it's a newer model. the last 2 leases did not. I haven't used it though. i don't have any CDs to play at the moment but i'm considering buy CDs again. not everything is available as records. i still have a ton of MP3s. so maybe burning CDs again too. i would like to have more non-streaming options while i'm driving.

I got a B&N gift card for mother's day. After careful deliberation, I replaced Ramones Road to Ruin, and picked out Led Zeppelin IV.

It was up against some stiff competition from Led Zeppelin ii, Guns n Roses Apetite For Destruction, and Dokken's Heaven Comes Down.

good choices

today we were planning to do Mother's Day dinner. it was cut shot because of an emergency that came up at work. so we pretty much ended up dropping off food and leaving. it turned out that i didn't even need to be involved in the work issue. which is good. but i'm mad that i didn't know that before we left my parent's. i'm going back over tomorrow and i'll hang out for a while. i felt really bad but i also couldn't relax if i thought i was going to get in trouble for not taking care of the work issue.

i've posted some here about my mom having some health issues. i can't remember if i talked about it since we got a diagnosis. but she has a form of Parkinson's. it doesn't really cause shaking but it affects her balance and speech. so it's like the words are there but she can't get them out which is very frustrating for her.

i'm going to try again tonight to see the auroras. apparently they might still be visible. especially further north. so if you missed them try again late tonight

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