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« on: March 28, 2024, 06:54:44 AM »
I finally had my first part of the deep health check today. So bloodwork, blood pressure (was low), weight, lenght, waiste measurement. Home. Fill in a 50 page questionaire about everything about me, from how I sleep and eat to how I feel mentally and if I use alcohol etc.. it took a good two hours. Luckily it was online so I don't have to go back and give it to them in person. Next appointment is april 9th where we will go over the results of everything. I had been fasting since 10 pm yesterday so I was ravenous when I came home, lol. No eggs for breakfast, lets make a huge baguette! It was delicious. I got a package today with three lovley styling G3s so now I have all five of them  . Made me so happy to see how well the seller had packaged them, I got warm fuzzies allover and felt bad about opening them up. I went for a walk with a friend and talked for a bit. Felt good. In a minute or three I'm gonna join hubby on the couch and take a nap  .
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« on: March 28, 2024, 06:44:25 AM »
Pokeyonekenobie yaaay for the new car!
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« on: March 28, 2024, 06:42:30 AM »
Thank you so much everyone for the hugs. Hugs right back to you  I've slept horribly and it has taken a lot of time to decompress. I talked to a coworker about it yesterday and it felt better afterwards. I slept really good for being me this night. But I still see the poor animal when I close my eyes. It will take a long time to ease it's way to the back of my mind. Still nothing on the police page for incidents in that area. Taffeta I mean no disrespect, I express myself clumpsily when I am stressed. But John did not try do distract, he does that when a topic is boring to him. And a traffic accident can be very boring if he had no part in it. He can passionatly talk for a long time about anything that interests him but the minute the topic is something he has no interest in, he stop listen and try talking about something else. One of the reasons I suspect he has ADD (there are other things pointing at that directions as well). Me talking again about a traffic accident that I already disclosed in texts were of no interest. Sad but true. BC poor ducks and poor you  I remember going with mom one time when we hit a dove. That has haunting me for close to 25 years and it died right away. That bridge collapse was terrifying! It was a bit of beauty in how it fell, but wow, how little it took to make it fall. I am so sorry for those who lost a loved one  . Luckily the police were fast at closing the bridge which prevented a lot of casualties. It's both a plus and a minus with AI in art. Within Temptation has released three musicvideos by using AI and has gotten a lot of backlash because of it. But they explained it's still a lot of work to make it right. John is a photographer and AI is part of the latest photoshop and he has used that sometimes to edit a pic, like adding a leg that was covered or extended a floor. For some it's cheating and stealing, for some it's a tool. Unfortunaly the haters voices are the loudest.
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« on: March 28, 2024, 03:36:52 AM »
I made a baguette for breakfast with creme cheese, brie, smoked tenderloin, baby spinach and tomatoes.. I was hungry, lol.
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« on: March 28, 2024, 03:32:18 AM »
Aliens 8/10
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« on: March 26, 2024, 04:56:36 AM »
I'm just gonna put this in spoiler. TW wild animal traffic accident Yesterdag night, a cargo train ahead of us broke down on a single track route so we were locked north of it standing by a station. Another train going the opposite direction were locked on the other side of the broken down train. We were waiting for a help train to come move the broken train away, but it also broke down on the way.. So it was decided that we should switch trains and go by bus inbetween. That is 90 minutes by bus/an hour by train. I rarely have this route to begin with, I hate it as it's always problems happening with delays. Last time I had it was septembre last year. So it's late evening, we've been waiting for almost two hours at this point when it was decided about the bus. It's around 10 pm and we're on this bus inland going on little dwindeling roads and I'm so lost I can't point to north because of all the turns. As I'm a traindattendee I sit right behind the driver so I can grab the mike if anything needed saying to the passengers. Spoiler Out of the blue, this reindeer comes up before us and there's no way around it. We hit it. So the bus stops and we back til the reindeer and it's alive. But it can't move it's backlegs . It's hurting and stressing and all I want to do is cry but I have to remain professional. I'm in uniform. None on the bus is a hunter. The bus has nothing to help put the poor thing out of it's misery. Since it's the property of sapmi we have to call the police which I do. I can't tell exactly where we are and the bus drivers dialect is so heavy I can't interpret what he's saying so he ends up talking with the police. In the end they ask if they can send me a link to share my location through the phone with them. I do. So now they have my coordinates. The busdrivers is asked to give his information and we're told we can go. My last view of the reindeer is of it cuddled up at the snowbank. It lays like it's just resting. It's not stressed anymore and don't look to be in too much pain. But I hate to leave it there. I wanted so much to sit by it, hugging it, telling it it's not alone.. but going near it would stress it more so I just watched from a distance. The police said they're not too far away so I think it's just a matter of fiteen minutes tops. An hour later, as we've arrived at the new train the police calls again and wants to know where the raindeer is. I mean, it's still alive? Alone? Hurting?  I mean, they got the coordinates! How can they not have found it?! It couldn't move! I want to cry again! The busdriver talks to them again. He gave me the phone, we said goodbye and we're off on the train. We're super late at this point. I'm finally home at half past 2am. I was supposed to end my shift at 11 pm. It takes til I am home to break down crying. I cry so much Ninja jumps up on the bed and lays next to me when I try to sleep. He never does that. But he knows. Sweetest thing. I slept poorly. I woke up after just three hours. Cried all morning. Hubby came home. I talked to him while crying. I can't get it out of my system. I have this picture of it locked in my head. and this is another problem.. and a reason why I think John has some diagnoses. He's usually very sweet and kind. I had texted him about the accident and he had brought chocolate with him when he came home.. but I am crying my eyes out telling him about my experience and he listens, says it's sad and then goes "speaking of something completly different, I have this money on google testing that expires in four days and I need to buy something in the appstore but I don't know what!" Like, seriously? I've been through some major trauma and you want to discuss imaginary money? He didn't even give me a hug! I've been checking the incident report the police gives out about events and they have posted nothing about it. The only thing about something similar is three days ago.. it's like they never went to it.. 
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« on: March 24, 2024, 08:31:03 AM »
I hate my head sometimes.
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« on: March 24, 2024, 08:27:57 AM »
I spent the morning, noon and afternoon on the couch bingewatching the second season of Buying Beverly Hills while my head made me consider unspeakable things to said head.. I was knocked out so bad, even the painkillers did not help. I managed to feed the cats and I ate a small lunch of leftovers since yesterday, but boy, it was tough. Around three pm I was well enough to stand without getting motion sickness. I managed to dress and went out for a walk to get some fresh air. I walked for almost an hour. I have no idea how, my body was craving movement I guess.. Now I'm well enough to function at least. Drinking tea of grated fresh ginger and dried mint with honey and eating chocolate and cheesedoodles. Congratulations Beth! I hope you had a great birthday!   PBW I'm glad the bathroom is finally coming together! Can we get piccies when it's done? lovesbabysquirmy you are a superwoman! 
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« on: March 24, 2024, 08:12:28 AM »
I had cheese gratinated falu sausage with boiled potatoes, ketchup and cold garlic sauce. Falu is a sausage that is skinless and thick as a wrist. There is a ton of dishes we do with it. The gratinated one is a staple in swedish homes. Some put stuff like ketchup, mustard and pieces of onions and apples in it before it hit the oven. I hate those versions, but doing it with just cheese is really nice .
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« on: March 24, 2024, 08:05:17 AM »
The Chieftains feat Sinéad O'Connor - The Foggy Dew
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« on: March 24, 2024, 08:02:51 AM »
I found two packets of Fazers Crunchy caramel & nougat chocolate! in my candy cupboard. It made me so happy I wanted to cry! I was out walking and was thinking of going to the store and buy a new chocolate bar but decided against it as I was cold and wanted to get inside.. finding chocolate already home made my day!
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« on: March 22, 2024, 09:34:34 AM »
We have officially ended our nonsugarintake (as hubby failed and gave up) so I'm munching on a bar of my favorite chocolate and drinking my favorite bloodorange soda. It's friday!  I've not done much, groceryshopping and watching tv. I have no plans for the weekend which feels soo good! EDIT!: I forgot to mention that I finally got my new appointment for the health care center! It only took a month! But now I don't have to feel anxiety and guard my phone like crazy anymore. I called this morning and the scheduler called me back this afternoon. I am so relieved!
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« on: March 22, 2024, 09:30:28 AM »
I was gonna call the vet to update on Simba. The voicemail had a different voice. Now it said they had call times and I was out of it. So I'm figuring if I just gonna email or call on monday. I need to make an appointment for bloodtest now that he's been without medicine. I was supposed to get back within 7-10 days. Monday will be more than that. I also read that the practice have been bought by this big capitalist firm.. we have been lucky up here that most practices are private with good competition, but with this new player who knows how the market will be. I hope it wont be worse and they increase the prices. I love this vet, I don't want to go to anyone else.
I also noticed my schedule is different at the start at the upcoming week than it's supposed to be. Entire different routes and times. I called the planning who said to talk to my manager so I emailed my manager and she said she had not seen these changes and was gonna ask another person and get back to me.. it's my day off I don't need this.. but it's past five now and she has not gotten back to me yet so I might as well turn it off now. I told the planning that I could still work those hours but it was weird it's not what I have on paper.
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« on: March 22, 2024, 09:15:52 AM »
I'm not sure Ponyfan but it lookes like the top of the twigs of the ficus are green? Thats a good sign. What happens if you bend the twigs a little? If they're alive they should bend easily, if it's dead and the twigs dry they should snap.
I love the windowsill Taffeta! It looks so yummy! Lovley!
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« on: March 22, 2024, 09:10:05 AM »
Lilacs are a sign of summer here. We had a snowstorm this morning. I can't wait for lilacs
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