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[Kiwi]

So, let's see:
13th (2) - got some crafting done
14th (4) - busy day (errands), and spent some relaxing time with the hubby which was nice and we both enjoyed just having the time together, especially because the weather is absolute crap this weekend (4+ hrs just smashing blocks in Minecraft - we're excavating the inside of a mountain and turning it into our house)
15th (4) - more crafting done, some Etsy items listed or prepped and ready to list

[Miniature Sheep]

Today is a 4 - I went out for a long walk in the morning and again for an interview in the afternoon, despite my leg protesting the entire time. Going to have to go back to using a support bandage; I tried putting some tiger balm on it and that did a massive heap of nothing whatsoever. I'm not even sure if it can be sorted either, seeing as it's down to damaged ligaments that haven't healed properly. :/
Did some reading in the morning and I've got a Cormac McCarthy book from the library to check out, so there'll be some more time for reading before bed.
Also took the time to do some meditation this morning, it hasn't helped me to stay focussed much but it's a step in the right direction.
And I did a bit of guitar practice, just going over what I've learned recently.
Today isn't a 5 because my head's been all over the place all day and I was a bit too wrapped up in anxiety issues to actually step back and try to sort my head out.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Great numbers everyone:) wish I was posting more. This is week 2/3 for my play. Sadly I have to get a second job:( the school has me only till June 5th then off the whole summer, but since I started at an odd payroll time my paycheck won't come until the end of this month. So we gave to dip into savings to pay bills.

My system of points will be 5, for doing some type of activity in my free hours: knitting, work out, piano...and so forth.

4 is attempting, but not completing much

3 I took a break I needed

2 no motivation when I have time

1 eating bad but no money lost

0 money spent on bad things.

I am starting today. I want to get 10 points by the weekend. This will be more another 35th anniversary pony, or a bag of pony wear that someone might be selling:) if i get a 0 day, my points go to zero. I need to really work on my issue with food. I use it for comfort, but at home AND with me i have healthy items, but I like to sneak off and get junk food.

Day one (April 17) I avoided junk food, oh I was close. I need to focus on play and sleep, so 3.

[Bekuno]

April 16th:
Worked a lot, didn't get to spend any time with boyfriend so I was sad. I was productive with art and had fun on the side but nothing great. Average 3 day.

April 17th:
Got the guts to drive to the mall a city over and apply for a job. It looks promising, I really hope I get it. I took some emotional support though because I was so scared. As a result of my panic I ended up binge spending what little money I have  Not happy with myself. A 2 because I was social and faced my fears, but lost lots of points for spending.

[Kiwi]

16th & 17th - I'll give a 2 each....did a bit of behind the scenes shop work (new listings, posts), but no crafting or anything else got accomplished, just need to unwind. Busy week at work.

[Miniature Sheep]

Yesterday was a 3, I went out for a walk and did some reading, meditated in the morning but couldn't motivate myself to play the guitar.
I think today is a 3 as well, I've been out, meditated for a while, finished reading one book and picked up a bunch of others from the library, still not feeling up to playing the guitar at all though. :/

[Crowning_Glory13]

I am knitting and getting some loose ends tightened. Each day at a time. I am binging on junk food and I know it's all emotionally related. I eat my emotions, and I just feel worse. I know 90% is just being tired and stressed. This is my last week of the play so I will have more time.

I have started a cleanse to help curb the bad food craving. I am just toting a large 32oz bottle of lemon water  (hoping to drink 2 of these) and a ginger tea. I hope it will curb bad cravings and focus on the good food I have before me.

Ok....danger time. You will need to add your points to the end of this month. The reason, 1. So I can see what points to have people reach for the prize:) 2. So you can say, I can get a higher number next month.

My month has been bad, so I  (no one else can:p) putting myself to 0. I need a fresh start and going only up gives me hope.

[glitterball]

After a stressful few weeks, my kid is better and back at school. The weather is sunnier and all the Easter chocs have been eaten... oink oink...

I weighed myself yesterday  yikes, I have gained, since November, SO MANY POUNDS - I feel so ashamed... I am over my healthy BMI and feel bloated, clothes uncomfy.

- BUT -

I am now in the right frame of mind to kick this all into shape!

Fired up MFP to log all my food intake, prepped some healthy meals for the day and upped my Metformin back to 2 tablets (last Nov, was asked to try it at 2 instead of 3, then down to 1 tablet, but I have not had a period since Dec so I am slowly going back up to the previous dose to see if this changes things).

I am now back at the gym (had to stop last month to stay home to look after kid - staying up late at night meant I was too tired for the 5am wake-up, then staying home all day to look after her while husband was at work).

So - I have set myself a mini goal - as it is always easier to break things down into smaller steps -
lose a certain amount by end of May - and hopefully be within healthy BMI again.

Long term goal - Be at or below my November weight by Aug/Sept.

Right - off to prep my meals for today! 

[Crowning_Glory13]

Way to pull the reins and get back to working on you.

[Crowning_Glory13]

This afternoon is my last show for the play! I am so glad to be done with that stress. I did bond with one person as a friend, but the rest of the ladies have been two faced. From over hearing horrible things said about me to, being stated that my view of trying to get others to feel better about themselves and having a positive outlook is just a mask for myself being hateful towards myself. I do have self issues to myself, but I find joy when other feel happy. I retorted back with that and got the you can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. Yes that’s a hard truth, but uncalled for when the whole point of the conversation was to get into a positive place....in short people can suck horribly and I am so happy to be out of this play.

So I am starting my score at 0 for May. I am focusing on me. I am 170lbs and it all comes from junk food and eating more meals a day than one should. So I get a work out in it’s a 5. I spend any money on pony or junk food without my husband’s knowledge is a 0. I need to be saving money not spending it. Piano I s a 5 day as well, but with two jobs it will be hard. My weight is making me more depressed and doing worse actions, so it take priority to work on.

Please give me your total scores for the Month of April, once April ends:) this way you have something to work on.

I kept bad track, so I have to beat 30 points. 1 point for each day. I am still keeping my punishment of getting a 0 is making my total points 0. It’s my way of saying ‘you know better’

Hope to hear from you all soon:)

[tulagirl]

Good grief CG those people are little nasty cat brats. ROFLOL it sounds to me like they have some issues with their own identities here and are projecting that on to you.  Insecurity on the high end there.  Good thing this revisit to your childhood locker room days is over.  Hugs  Stay positive because negativity doesn't help us move forward.  Instead, it is like treading through quick sand.

[Ponyfan]

I am so far behind. I can’t seem to stay motivated on reporting my progress (which isn’t much lately) although I still make heathy choices. I even took the stairs at the hotel I stayed at recently instead of the elevator.

Ponyfan

[Crowning_Glory13]

Recording can be hard. It's ok to give yourself a score too. There 31 days. 1 point each day is 31 and 5 points would be 155. So gauge your month from there:) you are still reflecting on your progress:)

I did buy a pony...bad me. But I did knit AND walked a football track twice:) it was a way to deal with my sadness.

4 point today. Got some good things in buy should have waited on the pony.

[Miniature Sheep]

Eek! Is it May already?! I really need to get a fresh start on this; I really fell off the horse, lost track of my goals and my self-care routine along the way. April was a really duff month. :/
Having sat down to think about it a bit, my slightly reworked goals for May are...
1. Do something creative every day - whether it's writing, drawing or music. An underlying task for this is to make sure that I don't rely on muscle memory (in relation to drawing and playing the guitar) so I don't keep going over the same things incessantly.
2. Meditation every day - doesn't have to be for long, the main point is setting aside some quiet time in the day.
3. Staying active - can be going out for a walk, cleaning the house or gardening. I have no excuse to loaf around the place feeling bored.
4. Reading - probably the one goal I have actually excelled with, but it's still a task to focus on the text and read more slowly/take things in properly.
5. Being more present - keeping my mind from wandering is impossible but I can notice when it happens and come back to the situation at hand instead of spacing out altogether.

Based on these new goals, today is about a 3. I've been out into town twice, read for a while in the morning and had a short meditation session. Can't really motivate myself creatively today, too many things in life are grinding my gears.

[Crowning_Glory13]

So far 5 today....still have a bit to go. It could change