Healthy Pony the New Year

[Safflower]

I have been practicing Gaelic every other day, which is a good start to get back into it. I've been doing a bit less drawing though. And of course, getting a stye on my left eye from allergies is not helping either.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Hugs with the state.
 
After seeing/reading people talk about drawing, do you do it for fun, money, do you do like comics? I ask because my drawing is ok, but I have story ideas. I am not sure if I am good at writing them, like a book. Thought of drawing out the stories, and improve my drawing as I go.

Any thoughts...i do have a goal to be published some day.

[Pokeyonekenobie]

Generally I draw for myself and sometimes give them as gifts to people.  If you want to draw something, go for it.    The hardest thing I find with drawing is that I haven't found my own style yet.  I feel like I just copy everyone else so I get frustrated trying to draw something that I can consider original because I over-analyse my work and only see everyone else's influences.  But maybe I need to consider that the amalgamation is my style.  Hmmm...

Had the day off from work so I painted all day.    I finished three boxes (one of which I started over six months ago and couldn't decide how to finish it off) and have started two others.  I had planned to spray seal the small set of drawers I finished last week but it snowed last night and it's still too cold/humid to use the sealer that I want to use.  Once it warms up I'll seal the paint on everything but for now they're in pieces on the bed in the guest room.   

[Crowning_Glory13]

59 points today! Half way there. I get 1 point for small items like taking a vitemin (so bad at) 1 point for drinking more water, but walking certain knit projects and piano get 10 plus points. But bad whammy if I have extras or bad. There is pasta at work tomorrow and it will be hard to say no. It also helps my husband had to work later, so I had to keep myself busy...and not eat.... sigh half way there can I keep this gusto?

I can not wait to see pictures of your painting. We should do some pictures to liven up the forum

[lovesbabysquirmy]

oh i must check in and try to stay positive.  gahhhhh my updates still are full of negative stuff!    let's say between my cat recovering from 2 surgeries in one week, and my entire household coming down with "it's not the Flu!", yeah... best not to elaborate. 

Crowning_Glory13 : I really am hoping that you find a work schedule that is best for you!  *hugs*  how stressful!

glitterball :  love hearing how much progress you are making with the house, even if it's not being purchased by anyone at the moment.  Less stuff you have to do later! 

Miniature Sheep :  Totally understand you on the self-confidence thing...  I don't share most of my creative endeavours as I am embarrassed to. 

Safflower :  Focus on school if that's the thing that is moving your life forward! 

Dreamer : You are not alone in feeling this, as you can see  

Pokeyonekenobie :  we'd love to see your work!

Shatyr : it's about learning new habits and choices in your mind first, and less about what your body does with those choices.  that will eventually follow! 

[Shatyr]

Drank my 64 oz yesterday, but overate at D&D (they brought BBQ chicken for dinner, it was soooo tasty...).

Staying home today, the roads are lousy with snow and I honestly though I would end up driving off the road on my way home last night. It'll cost me PTO, but I have tons of that and I'd much rather live to use it.

So, since today's an unscheduled day off, I'm going to see if I can't reclaim my living room early! If I'm diligent, I can maybe even play with the 3D printer this afternoon!

[Crowning_Glory13]

Yeah..lost some points...like 20. I go an extra...bought food, and it wasn't even good....lesson learned. I have not touch knitting today. Just kind of went lazy. I am not too upset, but could have held out:p

[Shatyr]

I wasn't nearly as diligent as I could have been. Got some good progress on the living room, but ate poorly. Drank enough water, probably going to bed early. Didn't get to touch the 3D printer, but tomorrow's another day...

[Safflower]

Didn't do Gaelic today, darn it. I've been trying to draw, but I haven't been doing much Once I'm free of all the homework I have though, I can be more productive!

[Miniature Sheep]

Well, I got rejections from two more jobs yesterday, had a bit of a meltdown about it, now I'm back on the horse and finding more jobs to apply for. I know that the problem is my social anxiety; I prepare a lot before interviews and in my previous temp jobs, managers have always said that they've been really happy with my work, it's just my nerves and struggling with eye contact that undermines my capacity to put across what I have to offer in the workplace. :/ I'm trying really hard to get past it, regardless of how incredibly stressful it is, but progress is slow and I have a lot of setbacks.
Also been trying to focus more on achievements to keep from getting too bogged down in frustration; my guitar playing is improving in small but noticeable increments and the violin is... well, it could be a lot worse considering that I've only been at it for roughly two months. I'm also two and a half pages away from finishing another issue of my comic, with the writing for three more waiting in the wings, which is a nice change from finishing one and then agonising over what to write about next.
And I'm still keeping active and making decent choices about what to eat, rather than "can't be bothered, may as well do soup again", so even though jobhunting is completely draining, there are other areas where things are going well.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Minituresheep, I want to know more about your comic!!! Is there a place you post? I would live to read it. I did a comic a ling time ago. It's was rough, but I had a lot if fun:)

It's ok to melt down. Rejection us very hard. I used to compete a lit and being told no you are not the winner killed me each time. I used to think it was my fault, I wasn't good enough, but really I just didn't shine today. You will shine, I just know it. You will get that job:) but screaming and crying are ok....some times letting the emotions out helps... I just did a what's your problem post, and I feel better and more clear about my path. I have a hard time with eye contact too, I try and look at the mouth.

It's a new day, and it's not looking fun for me:( sigh.

[Shatyr]

Got to work early, with my meals prepped and my mind focused. We'll see how long the mind part lasts.

I've made so many personal plans, but I only just realized today that I haven't really made any job plans. I want more than where I'm at, but my bosses aren't all that great at providing guidance on how to move up in the department. "Every promotion is different, we'll know to promote you when you prove you have what it takes" is well and good for them, but it STINKS when people are trying to develop themselves as employees.

[Crowning_Glory13]

Oh I hear you there. I have started nagging. Not daily, but once in awhile I will ask how am I doinh, is there a promotion to drive for, can I do more..etc.

[Ponyfan]

I’ve been really quiet lately. Real life hit hard and I’ve found it hard to keep up this time. I’m still trying to walk when I can.

Ponyfan

[Crowning_Glory13]

Day by day ponyfan:) you are being mindful and that's a plus:)